had a tiring day today, walked alot, far east to taka to heeren to cine and back to heeren.. settled all presents there were to settle, but i am a bit sad at having to disappoint my brother..

maybe people think how come my brother always asks me buy things for him, but i try to get whatever he asks me to, cause i feel he seldom asks me for anything anymore, and if i could get him something really nice that he needed i would make him happy, and i would be happy too.. but today i failed in that, and i feel sad. and the slippers he so haolian about makes me feel lousy, cause i took his money for it, though it wasn't ex, just because i keep going out these days, and i'm broke. feel abit 孬. grr

and i'm in a fix. haiz.

didnt know that weeinn had a job lobang, and when i knew it today, i was eager to work, for the money. but then i had already promised gen to go together for an interview on fri, which was supposed to be one of the days i working with weeinn. and tomorrow's the interview for the job weeinn has.

well, i could find some way to go for the interview with gen, by falling 'sick', or i could postpone to go the interview alone, or just cancel the job interview, which means losing the potential job. the last option is the easiest i know, but i know that gen went to some trouble to help me find job, and i feel so bad if i were to cancel. it would be as if all her good intentions and effort went down the drain, and i really do appreciate her!

the job she has for me seems interesting, though it really is something i never tried before..abit tentative but i would like to try.. i just want to try and see if i like it, if i'm up to it.. wrong?

haiz, but to pontang half a day's work is not good either.

haiz. i suddenly feel like being obstinate, let everything work themselves out.

haiz.